it's been a long time since i've wrote something in this blog. been busy with my life. i've been promoted to an assistant manager, so that means more time for work and less time for myself. and now that my manager is heading to a new workplace, all the works are on my shoulder until we get new replacement. 

these few months, i've spend my time with my loved ones and also spending my free time watching Japanese drama. my bf seems healthy and i spend few days with him. how do i express my love for him?? he's everything. hm...

and by the way, i really have to talk about few japanese drama that i've watch. and the main actor that caught my eyes this time is Shota Matsuda. These are the list of his drama that i've watch. and it was definitely worth the time.

• Don Quixote
• Liar Game
• Liar Game 2
• LIar Game Final Stage
• Meitantei No Okite
• Hana Yori Dango
• Hana Yori Dango 2

As usual, his acting in Don Quixote & Meitantei No Okite cracks me up and it was an enjoyable watch. In Liar Game, he shows his charisma as a genius swindler very convincingly. Here's a few pix of him.

in Meitantei No Okite

Liar Game as Akiyama Shinichi

Liar Game

 


Now, i'm starting on Love Shuffle and hope that he does not disappointed me after giving terrific performance in his dramas & movie.


And, i'm also looking for 13th Assassins for my next movie to watch. And maybe Bangkok Knockout. Ah...i forgot. My workload might take over me...

well, till then. wanna start watching Love Shuffle.

i must confess that i've spend so many time watching korean dramas. way too many that i've addicted to it. i first started off with watching Taiwanese drama, Meteor Garden, which was the craze early 2000.. hahhahahaha...i still remember how i fall head over heels with Dau Ming Shi...and of course the rest of F4 were too enchanting to ignore. then, i watched Mars, with Vic Chou & Barbie Hsu as leading actors. you should watch this drama, btw. a different side of Vic Chou, contradictory from Hua Ze Lei of Meteor Garden. 

after these 2 dramas, i've started to watch Korean drama, one by one and i'm glad with the dramas that i've chose. the list is as below (not in order) :

1) Sungkyunkwan Scandal
2) The Greatest Love
3) Ms Ripley
4) My Princess
5) Scent of A Woman
6) Warrior Baek Dong Soo
7) Protect the Boss
8) Personal Taste
9) Boys Over Flower
10) Secret Garden
11) City Hunter
12) Lie To Me

* in red are my all time favorite....


And yeah, Japanese Dramas as well; Detective Conan 2011 & Beautiful Love. I am collecting Detective Conan anime as well as i have been addicted to this anime since early 2000.


and now, am waiting for Running Man. i've been waiting since forever for the newest episode  but since Isubs is subbing it with very much detail, i can't help but wait patiently. 


hm..that's all my drama craze for now. am looking for new drama to download. expecting Poseidon & Babyfaced Beauty soon.

can't help but feeling nothing. nothing to accomplish. nothing to think. nothing to do. worse yet, nothing to live for. once in a while this kind of feeling will creep back into me, driving me mad with uncertainties and felt like the future is too bleak. i try to maintain my sanity by ignoring this feeling but eventually, it will always overcome me and take control of everything. i guess my depression will never be cured.

i really don't feel like doing anything. i don't even want to wake up. i just want to curl up in my bed, whole day long doing nothing. i don't want to go to work. i don't want to go anywhere. i just feel nothing. i don't know how to describe what i felt right now. i don't know how to put it in words; these feeling of nothingness is too overwhelmed.

faking a smile in front of other people would be easy. but to trick my heart into thinking that i'm okay would be too hard. most normal people would never understand what it felt like being in depression. i felt like dying every single minute and yet, people laugh saying i'm crazy to feel that way. 

i don't want to meet people right now. i just want to hide in my room, under my blanket in the dark, alone; where time stops ticking, where everything is quiet & i'll be in my own world.

i'm tired. i don't know where i'm going. i don't know what i'll do. and i'm scared. scared of being too brave one day. brave enough to end my life. 

life.....will there be life for me i wonder.....

i found this blog when i was blog-walking and i am truly impressed. i wish the author had update her blog daily but the last time she update it was last year. try read it. and you'll be amazed.

if you guys wanna create a page specially to humiliate her, go ahead. it' your choice. but please do not ask me to join you. i'm not her friend and i definitely had history with her. i chose not to dwell in the past and let gone be bygones. Allah S.W.T is watching and i have had enough sins to last me a hundred years in hell. if you believe in Allah S.W.T, you would not have had to resort to this kind of despicable act. she will get her payback when the time is right. simply because Allah S.W.T knows what we do not. So, thank you very much, i must decline your offer.

in a few days time, i'll be entering my second year with my other half...hm...2 years...feels like it was just yesterday i first lay my eyes on him. there's so much that we have been through and believe me when i said it's tough being in love with a foreigner and experiencing long distance relationship.

the longest i have been with a person was 3 years, and i am hoping that my other half is the one that i'll be spending the rest of my life with. 

the thing that i notice about me and him is, we are totally 2 different person. we hardly agreed on simple things like what movie should we watch, different taste in music, opposite personality and definitely different approach to life. and oh yeah, he's younger than me by few years.

but, despite all of our differences, we still manage to stand by each other through thick & thin and have faith in each other. i believe in him and he believes in me. simple. 

that is the reason why we still manage to keep our relationship to where it is today, i believe. i'm not really into this 'anniversary celebration thingy' so there's no celebration for me. i'll just tell him how much i love him, just like i did on our first year together. not much but the thought's that counts, rite??

and i really really hope we'll manage to take this relationship a step higher in near future. Amin....

been a bit lazy to update my blog.. maybe because i'm still waiting for newest episode of Running Man to be publish and busy downloading Dream Concert. 

or maybe because i'm a bit tired from my hectic schedule; work, dating and work again...and today, after work, have to attend a friend's wedding. luckily the solemnization is after Isya' so i have plenty of time to prepare.

it's been ages since i've been to a wedding. truthfully, this is not my favorite place and i've been avoiding it ever since i can remember. the crowd, the noise and the folks doesn't go well with me. when we were growing up, my mother always had to drag us along with her whenever there is an invitation to a wedding. and we would always comes up with thousand excuses just to avoid going.

my mother would always says that if we did not show up at a wedding despite receiving the invitation, then none would come to mine when it's my wedding time. and i would just say, i will never marry, then.

come to think about it, i have never given serious thought about getting married. all this while, i've set my mind of living alone and spend my life the way i see fit. and it never cross my mind of how my wedding should look like, of how much i must spend for it. and honestly, i couldn't care less. if i were to get married, i supposed it will have to be the simplest one people have ever made. nothing grand, just the compulsory one.


and the hell with 'you're-only-getting-married-once-so-you-have-to-make-it-grand' shit. that's not my thing. might works for others but not me. i have never and can never see the importance or significance of turning things as simple as a wedding into a grand thing.

oh-oh..now my simple entry has turn into an emotional one. damn.. better stop before i'm getting all heat up for nothing. well, till next entry then... 

dem i love this song.....the lyrics is just so right......

my latest entry today is for none other than LeeSsang...i must admit that i didn't know about this duo before and if it's not because of Gary and Running man, of course, i wouldn't know that they exists.

i couldn't find more about them on the net, maybe because they are not an idol group, so, it's a bit hard to find info on them. but, nevertheless, after one try to another, i manage to dig some info on them here and here.

i just love their music and i must say that this type of hip hop really suits me well. i personally love Rush, Carousel, LeeSsang's Blues, I'm Not Laughing, Ballerino, The Girl Who Can't Break-up The Boy Who Can't Leave & Swing; a collaboration of Lee Hyori and Gary. Now i find it hard to pass a day without listening to their song.

I should thank Running Man for introducing me to the very attractive ordinary guy, Gary. i just fell in love with him more and more now that i've heard his rapping style. nice job, Gary. and so do you, Gil.. 

my very ordinary guy, Gary

hope that you guys continue to create more beautiful music and fill my appetite for good music. last but not least, LeeSsang jjang!!! Daebak!!!! 

i was watching Mr. Hercule Poirot and i remember how much i love this drama. played by David Suchet, this is the best Poirot i have ever seen. i think nobody could ever match him in playing this interesting character. the first time i watch this series was when i was 15 years old, i guess. and i was hooked from the first episode. even now, this drama is still in my best movies/dramas list. 

i guess it's also because i love watching period drama or movies, up to the 50's only. i found the years before 50's to be more interesting and intriguing. in those years, life seems to be more simple, peaceful and adequate, not like now. if you watch P.Ramlee's movies, you can see how simple life is, and how interesting Malaysia used to be. and i love that. maybe because i love simple things in life, there's no need to compete and not many crime like today.

talking about that, i remember something. i used to love reading newspaper but now i avoid reading it. it's not really good because i wouldn't know what happens around the world but what good could it bring when all you can see is only people dying, murders, war and crimes? back then, people don't sell their kidneys just to get an ipod but now they do. it really depressed me. i just wish that we can be where we used to be. so peaceful and people are afraid of doing crimes. 

but, we are living in the times where money or personal gains are more important than being nice to each other. there's no more value of living your life in virtue. through these period movies/dramas, i can just get away even for a while and marvel at the life. if only Doraemon is alive, not just a fiction, then i could borrow his time machine and wonder around in those period. 

well, i've been babbling for quite some time now, so it's better to stop and continue watching my dear Mr. Poirot...

till next time.... 
 

i'm a bit bored now so i've decided to write about my all time favorite movies/drama, which would not be in order coz i don't really put a number to things that i like. it also varies in genre, language and year as i also did not have specific criteria to have them on my list. 

My All Time Fav Movies & Drama

Mr. Hercule Poirot 
Midsomer Murders
Silence of The Lambs
The Fracture
Lord of The Flies
Shawshank Redemption
50 First Date
Lord of The Ring Trilogy
RED
Inception
Shutter Island
Ocean's 11, 12 & 13
The Bourne Series
Gone in 60 Seconds
Italian Job
30 Days of Nights
Chungking Express
Time & Tide 
Mulan The Movie
The Message
Moon Child
Mr. Brain
Beautiful Life
The Man from Nowhere
Some
R Point
Secret Reunion
Psychic
Maundy Thursday
Peking Opera Blues
The Phantom Lover
Mystic River
Hero

sorry but i have to stop now. there's still many on my list that's not here yet. i'm short of time but will continue updating when i have few time to squeeze.

i spent my time last night watching RED which i took a copy from a friend who's part time job is downloading whatever film he can find on the internet. starring Bruce Willis, John Malkovich, Helen Mirren, Morgan Freeman and Brian Cox, this movie certainly did not disappoint at all. it succeeded in making me glued to the screen without trying to fast forward and actually finish the whole movie with full satisfaction.

i must say, this movie has entered my list of 'Favorite Movie of All Time'. It's not that easy to be on that list, so congrats!! i especially love how, despite all the main character are in their golden age, their performances have put those younger than them to shame.    

the main attraction for me is Morgan Freeman. I have always love his acting, just like i love Sir Anthony Hopkins. The only regret i have is that his character died early. Hm..but it's okay. There's still John Malkovich, who's erratic and paranoid behavior makes him attractive even more. i simply love a scene where he was just standing, holding his 'pig' after he was scolded by Bruce Willis for attacking a woman, whom he suspecting of following them. Call me crazy, but i find that scene to be cute and very funny.

overall, this movie is definitely worth watching. i know it's last year movie, but since i have tendency to watch movie when it's already past their screening time and when people no longer talks about the movie, i couldn't help but watch it later than everybody else. 

I was reading the NST newspaper when i found in book section, a book called The Convert : A Tale Of Exile And Extremism. I was so intrigue by the title of the book that i began to google about it. And i am extremely glad that i did. 


It is a book written by Deborah Baker about a Jewish woman who convert to Islam and her insight on the religion. In short, borrowing words from the reviewer as 'a stellar biography of the American woman who would become one of the most influential voices of Islamic revivalism. It is a thought provoking look at a life of radicalism and it's consequences.' 

I found Maryam Jameelah and her thoughts to be inspiring and an eye opener. She had so much strength and believe in herself that she goes on to do what she knew was right. To think that it all happened in the 50's and how she found her path just goes on to show how truly Great our Creator is. Subhanallah!!! Allah Is Great!! 


She now resides in Pakistan and is very active in voicing her thoughts, view on Islam and the West.   

Here is some transcript of the interview with Maryam Jameelah. May Allah bless her life so that she could continue her fight for Islam and opened the eyes of the non believer, how great our Creator and how truth our religion is. Ameen.

i am now officially addicted to Running Man !!!

for those who had watched Running Man before surely knows why i am addicted to this South Korean variety show. And for those who don't, get your introduction here. They have the complete and latest episode of Running Man.

what makes this show interesting and alive i believe lies with the antics of the permanent casts, good script and of course, the game itself!!

to date, i personally like episode 33 & 35 coz they are so damn funny!! i was laughing madly and am very impressed with the guest.


well, go ahead and try watching it. surely you won't be regret and hook up to this show like me...;).

i've been meaning to write about this acapella group, but as usual, time is not on my side...luckily i've manage to squeeze some time to write about this amazing acapella group from South Korea, Red Soul. as usual, Star King has never fail to amaze me. even though they are from small village, this 6 good friend has proved that they've got what it takes to be successful. not looks nor money, but talent that has been bestowed upon them by the Gracious God. they won no1 place in the South Korean national acapella competition and now, touring the world to perform. it's always very nice to see young people who never stops themselves from reaching out their dream even though there are thousands obstacle in front of them. i especially love the way they sang...full of harmony and they seem most at ease when they were performing... 

move on to a very beautiful woman with powerful voice, Kim Mi-Ah.. i love when she sang Arirang in Star King..she's actually from South Korea, but began building her name in China by joining a singing competition and bagged the no1 spot after her 5th try. imagine her determination, what with her late father sick back home and no money to spend. just because she love music so much, she go through it all and succeeded in the end. her father died when she was preparing for the final, but she strive on and her sacrifice paid off. and she's now have been able to give her mother a comfort life. now, that's a filial daughter, i tell you.

in the same episode, there is a choir group called Hanbit Choir. and if you have a heart, they'll move it to tears and you'll be drenching your sleeve till the end of their performance. this choir consist of 11 blind kids with beautiful voice that will make you marvel at God's gift and in the same time, touched your heart with their ability to sing perfectly even when they are unable to see. the lead singer, Jiho was born with a perfect pitch and he's got a very good voice, which i guess is no surprise since his father is a singer. when he was young, his father would put him on his lap, using his body to teach his son the rhythm. they had perform together, father and son on stage, and i must say that that was the best performance ever, which not even Lady Gaga could surpass. try listen to their performance, singing Goose's Dream, original song by In Sooni and you will be enchanted just like i was.

try to watch Star King and you'll know why i am so amazed by these people. i don't know which episode Kim Mi-Ah is in but it was aired on 09/05/09 and Red Soul was on episode 117.

there goes my entry for this time. i wanna watch those episode again and be sure to put my tissue box next to me. till then...

take a look at this blog and have a bit of laugh.. good to release some stress. it belongs to Rachael Malai Ali and it is about her daily life with Mr. Kipling, her cat. Actually i prefer those that was posted in her fb because it was more hilarious and witty. kind of like Garfield in a way but who cares.. Mr. Kipling is a very smart cat and very lovable. 


enjoy...

as usual, my life is hectic as ever..

just got back from my hometown recently, paying a visit to my mom with my other half tagging along..he said it's been ages since he last saw my mother. and it's true. it's been a year since he set foot into my house. and my mom was very happy to see us... hehehehe.. 

and i was so glad to see my nephews, so cute and adorable. little angels, i called them. since my handphone is in hospital at the moment, i'm unable to upload any pix. too bad. wish i could capture their image in my head and upload it to Mr. Sena. 

although it was such a short moment, i was glad that i spent it with my other half and my family. now, getting back to my normal schedule, hectic from day to night.

there goes my short note in a short time. till i manage to squeeze lil time to write again, adios for now.... 

last nite, before closing my eyes, my mind suddenly flashed back to the day before my father passed away...and the thoughts make me cry yet again....

have you ever experience a dream like i did?? i often dreams that my father wasn't dead. that, him being dead is actually a dream. in that dream, i dreamt that he died and when i woke up, he's still very much alive. and i smile, thinking that it was just a dream. then only i woke up for real. this time, the feeling of him being alive still lingers. and i believe that dream to be real. 

i felt relieve knowing that my father is still alive. but then, as time passes by, i began to think of what was real and what was not. when i recalled all that has happened these few years back, only then i realized that i have been dreaming. my father did passed away.

i would then sit by a corner and cried my heart out. nobody knew that i have been dreaming like this. it happens for a few times already. and everytime, i would believe in that dream. i don't know why.

after he died, i went away from home. and i wouldn't come back for a few months. it was hard. i kept seeing him in every corner of the house. it took me a while to get used to the idea of not having him around anymore. before he died, i would live my life as i wanted to. i was not worried at all. even though i live independently, i always felt that i had nothing to worry about as long as he live.

now that he's gone, i felt the burden as i don't have anyone to depend onto anymore. i felt lonelier than before. and the pain would not just go away. it stays there and i don't think it will fade. it became too unbearable. i don't think i could handle another death in my family. that's why i have been praying that i would die first so that i would not experience the same feeling again. i know it's selfish, but if you never know how's the feeling of loosing someone, then you have no idea what i'm talking about.

i prayed that nobody would have to go through with what i've been through but i know it's impossible. everybody dies. and the living have to accept that and continue living with the grief. i don't know till when i'll keep having this dream. maybe it's my own way of dealing with my grief unconsciously. maybe. 

maybe i'll be able to accept his death someday. and maybe at that time, this dream would go away for good. maybe.        

my second entry for today..

been wanting to post about this great show but always either busy or forget about it...well, what can i say, i'm leading a very hectic schedule nowadays....

okay, enough chit chat and let's move on to the main point. i believe most Kpop lovers would know about this entertainment show. Star King is a korean entertainment program in which people with unique talents shows up and let the world knows of what they can do.

this show is hosted by none other than Kang Ho Dong, who is one of the famous host in South Korea. And he is helped by Super Junior Leeteuk(Teukkie)and Eunhyuk(Hyukkie), who acted as co-host for the show. MC Boom used to be the co-host, but since his entry to the military in 2009, the role has shifted to both dear Teukkie & Hyukkie.

I must admit that the sole reason for me to watch this show before has been because of Super Junior. But now, i've grown fond of the shows because of the kids that showed up in the show. they are just too adorable and melted my heart right away...

other than that, the Super Junior antics are too funny to turn away from and the show are just awesome. for those who did not know where to find the show, try youtube or visit these sites : http://ithetimes.wordpress.com/category/star-king/ & http://www.super-legacy.com/. You sure are gonna love it..!!!

have fun with Star King!!!!!!!!!!1

this entry is dedicated to my dear girlfriend, Nanadonz...

i am totally grateful that our path crossed and that we became good friend. she is someone who is very dear to me, who always says the right thing, very mature, totally a caring person and she's damn funny too.

i remember too well of our memories together. of the nights we spend enjoying ourselves, of the long talks we had, of the secret we shared, of the fights we had......everything...

she is a special person and i trust, will always be...i can't say too much of our time together, for it is too private. but all i want to say is how much i love her and treasure her..

i wish that she will get all the best things in life; which she already did and be happy always..

na, i love you girl and i know you're gonna be a great mom...

love, hugs & kisses...

my dear nana.......

infinity of sound - i don't know if any of you have heard of this triplet group before but i had a chance of encounter with them when i was watching Super Junior in Star King few days ago. 

i haven't gather enough information about this group, but here is what i can find about them. their style of music is very unique and really kept me glued to the screen. and not to mention of their soothing voice. 

these are their pix :

and this is where our first encounter is...i can't upload the vid as it's taking too long and i haven't got all day...

what do you think? very mesmerizing, rite??

i guess i fell in love with them as i love music so much... especially one which is unique and have a disctinctive personality in them..

i will try to find out more about their music and will post it here again...

till then, enjoy...........

i really need to post this entry.this is how i felt and i thank God that i found it. at least i found someone with the right word to express what i have been holding inside.

Thank you very much to you. 

been busy these few days...

finding time between my full time work & part time work is very hard. i'm working from 9am to 10pm everyday, and believe me, it is very tiring. i'm a bit stress as well, as i'm trying hard to gain weight but all seems futile. 

i've read somewhere saying that sleeping late will definitely makes you gain weight but, not for me. i've smoke less, even though there's no scientific evidence that's linking smoking with weight gain. guess i could blame it all on my high metabolism.

and i am a couch potato as well. everyday, i get to work, comes home, watch movies & sleeps in the wee hours. it's my everyday routine, which i find to be very accommodating and suits me well; although it does seems tiring and not to mention, limited sleeping time. 

my sweet other half would definitely be alarmed if he knows of my daily routine. he always worried if i didn't get enough rest or that i spent my resting time in front of my pc/tv and sleeps late.

whatever it is, this is how i'll continue on doing; at least before we're getting married. i bet, after that my lifestyle is going for a 360 degree turn. for now, though tired, i'm still happy doing things as i like.

is in the training room now, fighting hard my sleepiness and the coldness of this room...

why do i have to go to this training again, and alone????

if only my bf is here, he can easily warms me....

oh....concentrate....

it's training day...and i'm sleepy and cold....

browsing a dear friend's pix in fb really brought back old memories..and feeling nostalgic all of a sudden...looking back, i realized that it has been a long way to get to where i am now.. wonder where all the times has flown to...

the time of innocence, ignorance and being free....wish i could turn back time and enjoy life more, instead of being caught up in depression...

of course there's good and bad times in those memories....being with family, friends, fall in love, broke up, make up..everything had played part in the making of me today...

and look how i've grown in these years....from a shy young girl to an outspoken woman...guess all those experience really define a person to whom they are today..

well, i have to admit, being with nana, ejay, leny, syura, joe and yun has been one of the most exciting and best things that has happened in my life..they were a bunch of cool, crazy and wild friends that i really am grateful to be acquainted with. 

even though all of us has separated and had other friends, we are still in touch and always remembered our good old times together. thank you guys for being there and created all those sweet memories with me..

love you guys lots.....

eka putra, my sweet other half..

i will not reveal his real name here, out of respect as he would like to keep it private. i know i've said earlier that i did not put too much hope in this relationship, for fear that it will not last long. 

but as time pass by, i can't help but love him more for what he has done and for who he is. He had gone through hell just to get to me and i am really grateful that Allah S.W.T had send him to me. 

i know i had said over and over again that i don't deserve anything good in life but now, i really believe that second chance does exist and Allah the Almighty knows everything that we don't.

our relationship doesn't always sail smooths, just like any other couple and there's always ups and downs. but, thankfully, he's a real charmer. he's calm, collected, very patient, funny and very mature for his age.

he taught me what real love is and how it is to love someone as deeply as he did. he never once lose hope in me even when i lose hope in myself. never stopped loving me even when i'm clouded with my egoism and being self centered. what makes me touched even more is the fact that he left everything he had back in his hometown just to be with me. Even his mother had already given her blessing to us and always told me that she loves me every time we talked.

what more could i ask for from a man? he thinks really deep about everything and accept me as i am. and i do think i am blessed by having him beside me. i felt as if i don't have anything to fear as long as he's with me and felt like i don't need anything more. 

but of course, all couple in love would have said the same thing i said, rite?

well, whatever it is, i hope that this time, we will have a good ending and be happy together.

i really, really hate it when other people use my belongings and did not respect the owner of the things they use or borrow....

and i am especially furious when people whom i hate so much use my pc and use the internet like nobody's business!!! you know i hate you, you know you're scared of me and yet you have the nerve to use my pc when i'm not around.... you think i wouldn't know, do you??? idiot!!! next time, if you don't want other people to know which site you've been, please don't leave a trace!!!!

so, how is it when you see me explode and spill those words to your face? feels good rite?? so, please free to use my pc and make sure you prepare yourself of my wrath!!! 

talking about this bitch, i remember the time when she use to spread bad rumors about me and talk behind my back, i kept compose and didn't even want to bother with it. but then, when i think she talks too much and i couldn't hold my temper anymore, she gets what she deserve.

the results? she really takes care of her tongue when i'm around and i did not hear any rumors about me anymore..at least she knows now that i'm not someone who she can stepped on to..i might be quiet and smile for a while but you'll be sorry once you see the scary version of me.

for her, i say..serves you right!! a backstabber like you don't deserve a loyal friend like me. you stab me in the back, forever i'll put you in my hate list...there's no room for a person like her in my life...

enough said... 

i don't really have a topic today but wanted to tell you about this man whom i adore so much...he is a novelist & author of large number of thriller novels. 

i fell in love with him after i read one of his many bestseller books; Honeymoon, which i found accidentally while i was still working in Langkawi. After that fateful encounter, i tried to find more of his books and i manage to collect some. It's not an easy things to do as Langkawi is a small place and not many people loves to read thriller novels like me. even my best friend reads romantic novels like Shakespeare. 


up till now, i have read a few of his books only. and the place where i'm working now, it's even harder to find those books. the things that i regret most is that i had to leave those priceless possessions of mine to my god-sister in langkawi..and i still haven't been able to get it back due to some personal problems.


well, lets just leave that part okay..now, here's the list of his books that i've read :

1) Alex Cross novels 

• Cat and Mouse
• London Bridges
• Mary Mary

2) Michael Bennett

• Step On A Crack

3) Woman's Murder Club

• 4th of July
• 7th Heaven

4) Stand alone novels

• The Lake House
• Honeymoon
• Beach Road

Well, that is all that i've read so far..still trying to find more of his books as i am a very big fan of his and will try my best to collect all of his novels.

this is a link to his biography.

till then..

19th March 2011..

that was one of my happiest day in this life...i got to see my beloved Super Junior in flesh and blood in front of my very own eyes!!!

they were so charming and gorgeous (as what Eunhyuk said)..and the performances are definitely da bomb!! it was worth the time and money that i've spent just to see them in person. 

i bought the RM486.00 worth of tix and even though i was alone, it was truly an experience which i would not trade for anything...

this is the seating plan of the concert...and my tix is L16 C24 which i bought from another ELF who could not make it as she was having a working trip to China..and guess what?? i was sitting next to her friend who was supposed to go with her..and we easily make friends...

btw, i've met some wonderful ELFs on my way & at the concert itself.. they were truly very nice indeed and despite we did not know each other, we easily ease up to each other.


this SS3 is definetely my best concert ever and now i'm already planning for next year concert, SS4 which hopefully will be better than ever..

the most memarable would be when Sungmin look up to our seat direction and his face is just so innocent and his cuteness had reach critical point..and the other time when Donghae pointed his finger, aslo in our seat direction, and doing the 'love you' thingy over his head...so cute!!!


leeteuk is just as i expected him to be..very generous with his fan service and always smiling...Siwon is very handsome, Kyuhyun is just as he is; the evil magnae, Heechul as eccentric as he is, Shindong wz his funny attitude, Eunhyuk, the dancing machine is so tempting, Yesung with his angelic voice and Ryeowook, as sweet as he is..


and yeah, Henzry & Zhou Mi are so hot!!!in short, all of them are just freaking HOTTT!!!!!!!!!


i love you guys to death!!


here is some pix which i took from other ELF's blog as i don't have the pix of the concert wz me now..i'm typing from my office pc and those pix is in my lappy. enjoy!!

I think all ELFs knows that Super Junior is currently on Asia Tour for their concert, Super Show 3 and KL will be their next stop on this coming 19th March 2011. Dem, i would LOVE to be there to see them up close; belting out their numbers while showing off their antics on stage.

That would definitely be a dream come true for me..i dunno why, but i am just so falling head over heels with each and every member of this awesome group. And this is also the reason why i haven't been able to update my blog as i was so damn busy trying to get my hands on the tix. Many unfortunate things happens for this period of time. HR messed up my salary, the never ending story of my family probs and a lot of other things that are so frustrating; happened.

what can i say? every time i wanted something bad enough, it's always gonna be a long and winding road for me. sometimes, if i'm lucky enough, i'll get it after some hard work..but if i'm not lucky, then, it will just slip out of my hands. Guess that's why this phrase was created : we don't always get what we want.... rite??

dem...i wanna go so bad...

wish me luck in getting those tix..

till then, 

ELF + Super Junior Forever!!!!

remember this idiot?? i was waiting for what she has to say to me after i posted my blog and here it is... 

hey dolls. i baru balek dating dengan mysyang. terkejut beruk i tao. sebab tadi buat kali kedua aku bukak blog perempuan sorang ni. and rasanya postdia tuuntuk i. sebab semlam i teruja lebih, so i create an entry untuk dia. ahahhah! maknanya setiap perkataan dari i membawa makna besar kat dia kan?haru2.plus kan, dia suka nak explain masalah dia dekat i. eyh kenapa ye?i taknak tahu tao. akunak maki dia je cukup la. bukan nak berbaik dengan dia pon=D tp kan perempuan, i curious sangat,kenapa english you tak konsisten eyh?wondering...

well, for someone who has a 'princess disease', you really did keep up with your title..nice...i think what she says really reflects what she wants to hide inside...you don't have to admit it openly...i know it, we all know it...

who ask you to read my blog in the first place, idiot?? and when i say something that hit her right on her big nose, she would use this kind of excuse..hello..grow up!!! when you do something to those who never care for whatever you did, you would expect a get-back-for-what-you-did..


i believe it's called common sense..but this girl, i really don't think she has any sense at all..owh..that big body of hers really did nothing good to her..i guess all that eating really corrupts her mind..


btw, my english is as good as it can be, at least it's not on the same level of yours. standard rojak...what the hell???


owh, why do i even bother writing about this stupid slut..just let it go, will ya?? and please, please, please get a grip..
don't feel threaten just because of me...okay????


*pity such a young girl would turn into this.....really sad...

i know i had talk about this before in my other blog but this time, it really, really bugs me....

thing is, my boyfriend, putra had told me yesterday that he is planning on meeting my family and proposed to me. and we should get married as soon as possible. most people would probably be excited and couldn't wait for the big day to happen. but, it's the other way around for me. 

i'm getting cold feet. i mean, i am extremely happy with the way i am now. no strings attached and i get to spend my whole day just being with myself. to think that i have to share my life with someone else and took care of his needs send shivers down to my spine.

i mean, come on. yes, i love you but that don't mean we have to get married, rite?? that doesn't rite, is it??

argh..!!!how do i say it to him without hurting his feeling?? i just don't think the role of a housewife fits me. i'm not someone who follows the rule, i'm the one who breaks them. i don't like to be controlled, by anything or anybody. not even social boundaries. yikes, i hate that. like, as a woman i'm not supposed to this or that. and to behave like this or that, otherwise, people would look down on you. hell, like i care. 

i live by my own rule. i don't like social boundaries, like i said earlier. whenever there is boundaries, we cannot live the way we wanted to. i wanted to have a smoke whenever i want, i wanted to have a drink whenever i feels like and do whatever i want without any interference.

ah, how nice it is to live in europe. no restriction on how i'm supposed to live or behave. even if i wanted to paint my nails black, have a puff in public or even to wear a simple top should not be a problem to the society. but, what to do? i'm stuck here in Malaysia, supposedly a Moslem country.

see, now i'm drifting away from the main subject. the point is, i don't want to be married where i could be under the order of someone else besides me. i want to rule my life, not by a man called husband. damn!!!

now, i'm going to have sleepless night thinking of a way to escape from getting married...fuck!!!

well, it seems that the stupid stalker has returned back!!!! yeap, the one who has the 'princess disease'...i really thought she died already...

who the hell did she thinks she is to talk about my life?? for someone who had no idea about hard life, she sure is an accomplished poser. btw, at least my English is better than yours. one look at your English, we already knew where your level is.

and yeah, i hate my brother and my family, so what?? what the hell does it got to do with you?? very funny, indeed...to poke around other people's life and to tell them how to live, when you, yourself only exists in this world for a mere 21 years..


my life is mine and only i have the last say about it..not yours. to feel something & to let it out, no matter what's the method, it depends on me. good or bad, right or wrong, it's all in my hands. so, please butt out and take care of your own stupid life..


she really tickles me..she talks highly of herself and go on announcing to the world of how great her life is, and she still have time to peek at other people's life..


congratulations, you are now officially appointed as the busy-body-bitch-who-likes-to-peek-on-other-people's-life....very nice indeed!!

and i would sincerely suggest that you pay more attention in what you do best: eat!!..it's not that hard anyways..


let's give her a big clap k...bravo!!!

Super Junior!!!

i know, i'm a little too old to go crazy about some band boy, but what the heck?? i love their song, their dance and even more, i love their personalities!!

by now, i can already memorize their name, background, some of the lyrics and even knows a bit about their personalities. truth to say, they have helped me get through my empty day to day life. i would listen to their song and watch their performance every minute and every day.


does that makes me an ELFs? maybe a bit....


why?? because i'm not a person who will stick to one thing forever. i'll get bored one day, and i'll move on to something else. that's why i never last with a single person for too long.. and truthfully, i hate that about me.


so, i really hope that i will be their ELFs for as long as they exist..for someone who's crazy about music and dancing, this could be achieved if they keep my intrigue level high enough... i'm sorry SuJu, i know it's not right to say this, but hey, this is me...



what interest me about them is that, they are always shy, cute and adorable. they always shows their affection towards each other and you can felt the sincerity in them. and i really love how they cared for each other. really love it. 


So, dear SuJu, i really hope that you can change me into your true ELFs forever and ever...
 
SuJU, hwaiting!!!!


i love you......


Original line up :


Leeteuk, Heechul, Han Geng, Yesung, Kangin, Shindong, Sungmin, Eunhyuk, Donghae, Siwon, Ryeowook, Kibum, Kyuhyun


Surviving members :


Leeteuk, Heechul, Yesung, Shindong, Sungmin, Eunhyuk, Donghae, Siwon, Ryeowook, Kyunyun


* Han Geng drop out as having dispute with SME
* Kangin joined the military for 2 years. will be back in 2012
* Kibum busy with acting. will be back for 5th album

my pc background

my lappy background

this pix is too damn cool

surviving members hwaiting!!!

and lastly, my fav member of SuJu..even though i always felt that he has always been underrated, he has always been my favorite...
so, this is it...my dear Sungmin...

there it is, the no 1 thing that is on my list now..quite an achievement..they have been there for 2 months already...so, keep hwaiting SuJU!!!!