i've been in hiatus for quite some already..a lot has happened in life i guess....

for the past few months, i've been searching for ways to fill the gap that i have in my heart..then i remember one saying that says, whenever you feel lost, get back to your first step. and i did. i get back to my hometown, being with family and friends, and most importantly, i found back my One Protector; Allah S.W.T. 

i am forever grateful that He never abandons me even when i forgot about him. He brought me back from a deep hole and nourish my soul. i can now say that i have accept all that has happened in my life with open arms and i leave my fate with Him. i no longer feel lost and i am trying to distance myself from negative things or feelings. it's one form of jihad, i guess. it's not easy but i am trying my best.

i am on my way to fully covered myself. Being a hotelier in a city, it's not easy but i am wearing hijab when i go out. my clothes have changed to fully covered. i no longer wear fancy, sexy clothes, no hotpants, no skinny jeans. my clothes now is in grey or dark color, loose blouse, long length skirt or baggy trousers. 

i try to follow all the basic rule in Islam and i found that it is not hard actually. if you open up your heart, you will see the beauty of Islam. Alhamdulillah, i am very happy with my life now and i hope that Allah S.W.T will always keep my heart with Him. Insya Allah...