remember this idiot?? i was waiting for what she has to say to me after i posted my blog and here it is... 

hey dolls. i baru balek dating dengan mysyang. terkejut beruk i tao. sebab tadi buat kali kedua aku bukak blog perempuan sorang ni. and rasanya postdia tuuntuk i. sebab semlam i teruja lebih, so i create an entry untuk dia. ahahhah! maknanya setiap perkataan dari i membawa makna besar kat dia kan?haru2.plus kan, dia suka nak explain masalah dia dekat i. eyh kenapa ye?i taknak tahu tao. akunak maki dia je cukup la. bukan nak berbaik dengan dia pon=D tp kan perempuan, i curious sangat,kenapa english you tak konsisten eyh?wondering...

well, for someone who has a 'princess disease', you really did keep up with your title..nice...i think what she says really reflects what she wants to hide inside...you don't have to admit it openly...i know it, we all know it...

who ask you to read my blog in the first place, idiot?? and when i say something that hit her right on her big nose, she would use this kind of excuse..hello..grow up!!! when you do something to those who never care for whatever you did, you would expect a get-back-for-what-you-did..


i believe it's called common sense..but this girl, i really don't think she has any sense at all..owh..that big body of hers really did nothing good to her..i guess all that eating really corrupts her mind..


btw, my english is as good as it can be, at least it's not on the same level of yours. standard rojak...what the hell???


owh, why do i even bother writing about this stupid slut..just let it go, will ya?? and please, please, please get a grip..
don't feel threaten just because of me...okay????


*pity such a young girl would turn into this.....really sad...

i know i had talk about this before in my other blog but this time, it really, really bugs me....

thing is, my boyfriend, putra had told me yesterday that he is planning on meeting my family and proposed to me. and we should get married as soon as possible. most people would probably be excited and couldn't wait for the big day to happen. but, it's the other way around for me. 

i'm getting cold feet. i mean, i am extremely happy with the way i am now. no strings attached and i get to spend my whole day just being with myself. to think that i have to share my life with someone else and took care of his needs send shivers down to my spine.

i mean, come on. yes, i love you but that don't mean we have to get married, rite?? that doesn't rite, is it??

argh..!!!how do i say it to him without hurting his feeling?? i just don't think the role of a housewife fits me. i'm not someone who follows the rule, i'm the one who breaks them. i don't like to be controlled, by anything or anybody. not even social boundaries. yikes, i hate that. like, as a woman i'm not supposed to this or that. and to behave like this or that, otherwise, people would look down on you. hell, like i care. 

i live by my own rule. i don't like social boundaries, like i said earlier. whenever there is boundaries, we cannot live the way we wanted to. i wanted to have a smoke whenever i want, i wanted to have a drink whenever i feels like and do whatever i want without any interference.

ah, how nice it is to live in europe. no restriction on how i'm supposed to live or behave. even if i wanted to paint my nails black, have a puff in public or even to wear a simple top should not be a problem to the society. but, what to do? i'm stuck here in Malaysia, supposedly a Moslem country.

see, now i'm drifting away from the main subject. the point is, i don't want to be married where i could be under the order of someone else besides me. i want to rule my life, not by a man called husband. damn!!!

now, i'm going to have sleepless night thinking of a way to escape from getting married...fuck!!!

well, it seems that the stupid stalker has returned back!!!! yeap, the one who has the 'princess disease'...i really thought she died already...

who the hell did she thinks she is to talk about my life?? for someone who had no idea about hard life, she sure is an accomplished poser. btw, at least my English is better than yours. one look at your English, we already knew where your level is.

and yeah, i hate my brother and my family, so what?? what the hell does it got to do with you?? very funny, indeed...to poke around other people's life and to tell them how to live, when you, yourself only exists in this world for a mere 21 years..


my life is mine and only i have the last say about it..not yours. to feel something & to let it out, no matter what's the method, it depends on me. good or bad, right or wrong, it's all in my hands. so, please butt out and take care of your own stupid life..


she really tickles me..she talks highly of herself and go on announcing to the world of how great her life is, and she still have time to peek at other people's life..


congratulations, you are now officially appointed as the busy-body-bitch-who-likes-to-peek-on-other-people's-life....very nice indeed!!

and i would sincerely suggest that you pay more attention in what you do best: eat!!..it's not that hard anyways..


let's give her a big clap k...bravo!!!

Super Junior!!!

i know, i'm a little too old to go crazy about some band boy, but what the heck?? i love their song, their dance and even more, i love their personalities!!

by now, i can already memorize their name, background, some of the lyrics and even knows a bit about their personalities. truth to say, they have helped me get through my empty day to day life. i would listen to their song and watch their performance every minute and every day.


does that makes me an ELFs? maybe a bit....


why?? because i'm not a person who will stick to one thing forever. i'll get bored one day, and i'll move on to something else. that's why i never last with a single person for too long.. and truthfully, i hate that about me.


so, i really hope that i will be their ELFs for as long as they exist..for someone who's crazy about music and dancing, this could be achieved if they keep my intrigue level high enough... i'm sorry SuJu, i know it's not right to say this, but hey, this is me...



what interest me about them is that, they are always shy, cute and adorable. they always shows their affection towards each other and you can felt the sincerity in them. and i really love how they cared for each other. really love it. 


So, dear SuJu, i really hope that you can change me into your true ELFs forever and ever...
 
SuJU, hwaiting!!!!


i love you......


Original line up :


Leeteuk, Heechul, Han Geng, Yesung, Kangin, Shindong, Sungmin, Eunhyuk, Donghae, Siwon, Ryeowook, Kibum, Kyuhyun


Surviving members :


Leeteuk, Heechul, Yesung, Shindong, Sungmin, Eunhyuk, Donghae, Siwon, Ryeowook, Kyunyun


* Han Geng drop out as having dispute with SME
* Kangin joined the military for 2 years. will be back in 2012
* Kibum busy with acting. will be back for 5th album

my pc background

my lappy background

this pix is too damn cool

surviving members hwaiting!!!

and lastly, my fav member of SuJu..even though i always felt that he has always been underrated, he has always been my favorite...
so, this is it...my dear Sungmin...

there it is, the no 1 thing that is on my list now..quite an achievement..they have been there for 2 months already...so, keep hwaiting SuJU!!!!

i felt the urge to run away from everything nowadays...i wanted to be alone and live alone.. no pressure from my so-called family, my works and this life..

i'm seriously very tired living amongst people. love?? even more tiring. i know i can live alone just fine. as long as i have you mr. sena and all it's contents, i'll be just fine..


the real reason i'm having pressure right now is the fact that my brother keep asking money from me, yet again!!! the way i see it, the only time he recognize me as his sister is when he wants to gain something from me. when he gets it, he'll forget i even exist, just like he always do. 


he often lies in order to get money, from me, my mom or my other sibling. the easiest victim would be me. coz he knows, i always have a soft heart for my siblings or maybe he knew, that i long for a brother's love. if he shows that he care even for a bit, i would give him everything, rite?? wrong!!! i would not succumb to those tricks again.


i don't have a heart to say no..that's why i think it's better if i go and live in a place where nobody can found me..i really am frustrated with the way my brothers have been treating me... what am i to them?? a bank?? never once they asked me how my life have been or even try to care for me....never!!! i'm always the stupid one..


it's getting on my nerve talking about this...better stop now... i'm going for a ciggie with my headphones on...better listen to my beloved SuJu than thinking about my so-called brother!!!