so called brother!!!!

i felt the urge to run away from everything nowadays...i wanted to be alone and live alone.. no pressure from my so-called family, my works and this life..

i'm seriously very tired living amongst people. love?? even more tiring. i know i can live alone just fine. as long as i have you mr. sena and all it's contents, i'll be just fine..


the real reason i'm having pressure right now is the fact that my brother keep asking money from me, yet again!!! the way i see it, the only time he recognize me as his sister is when he wants to gain something from me. when he gets it, he'll forget i even exist, just like he always do. 


he often lies in order to get money, from me, my mom or my other sibling. the easiest victim would be me. coz he knows, i always have a soft heart for my siblings or maybe he knew, that i long for a brother's love. if he shows that he care even for a bit, i would give him everything, rite?? wrong!!! i would not succumb to those tricks again.


i don't have a heart to say no..that's why i think it's better if i go and live in a place where nobody can found me..i really am frustrated with the way my brothers have been treating me... what am i to them?? a bank?? never once they asked me how my life have been or even try to care for me....never!!! i'm always the stupid one..


it's getting on my nerve talking about this...better stop now... i'm going for a ciggie with my headphones on...better listen to my beloved SuJu than thinking about my so-called brother!!!